Ananääs

Being ND it feels that my senses are already too much sometimes and they become even more amplified by the amount of stress I experience. Honestly I’d rather have the option to decrease the intensity of sensory experiences than increase it. 😅

There are various factors that increase the risk of course, but according to the doctors for a person this young the exposure is not the reason for getting sick. Epigenetics could be the reason for the increase in young people’s mouth cancers as epigenetic changes in genes can transmit across generations, meaning it’s possible that, for example, environmental exposure that occurred in one generation, could be transmitted even further beyond their children and grandchildren.

Yup. My SO got mouth cancer a couple years back in their early 30’s, even though the operation was succesful and chemo & radiation worked and they’ll be considered cancer-free in about 9 months, the fact that it happened so early means it’s quite likely they’ll get it again. How does one live with that information? And as a partner how do I build my life around it? Of course it’s possible they’ll never get that shit again, but it would be foolish to not prepare ourselves mentally for the worst. If it’s around the head they can’t get more radiation. If it’s in the same place than the previous one they’d would probably lose their ability speak, eat properly etc. The chemo probably made them infertile so if we’d like to have biological childer we have just a couple years to make the decision, and I have restrictions about that so we’d have to look for other opportunities anyways, and we should start looking for them now but we * can’t *. If we move elsewhere, as we’d like to, the chances are they won’t get as good treatment as here. I don’t feel like I’m ready to consider all this in my mid 30’s while I’m still trying to find my place in the world. So yeah, fuck cancer.

I’m usually grumpy in the morning and feeling rarher down until 15-16, after that my mood gets a lot better, evenings and night time is best for me. If I have to wake up really early I feel just empty.

Elvanse can make the afternoon crash worse and it also causes a depression hour at around 17, I’ve tried taking half the dose in the morning and half mid-day and it seems to help with the crashes but it also makes the quality of my sleep worse…

Or “plaa-plaa-plaa”

The last encounter with Alexander the Warrior Jar in Elden Ring made me cry. What a brave jar and a good friend.

I think I might’ve cried for other reasons too when playing Elden Ring. :')

… Three

Juusto - Finnish

And some rat taste buds!

Just ask me to select the images with traffic lights in them, of course. Being a human I will fail at least a couple times because I’m not sure if that image with the corner of a traffic light should be selected or not.

Maybe a little bit OT but if you enjoy a different perspective on the history of humanity I’d recommend Humankind: A Hopeful History by Rutger Bregman.

“It argues that people are decent at heart and proposes a new worldview based on the corollaries of this optimistic view of human beings. It argues against ideas of humankind’s essential egotism and malevolence. The book engages in a multi-disciplinary study of historical events, an examination of scientific studies, and philosophical argumentation in order to advance Bregman’s opinion that, this outlook is more realistic compared to its negative counterpart.” -Wikipedia

“Just call me Wöstösö” -Worcestershire probably

Turn the digital clocks upside down. Did this accidentally to myself once and when I saw it at night I thought for a moment the universe had disintegrated. Startled pretty bad.

Also: mosquito sounds.

If you want to practice for your ghastly career you can start by Cenafying your loved ones!

Sounds a lot like Finland doesn’t it? I believe if our name is on it then it’s ours!

I’d get stuck in the mines

Semi-used clothes bin inside closet of course!

Yeah thanks * adult * for the advice, why don’t you try AuDHD and see what you think of it - or rather what others think of you when you just * be yourself *

Besides couch is superior to bed, those nights when I can’t get sleep in the bed the couch provides. Couch best. Even the cushions are for some reason nicer than pillows. Should definitely consider moving to the livingroom.